That's a funny phrase, back to the old drawing board. It means starting a project over, I think. I could google, but sometimes life is more magical when we leave room to wonder. Sometimes I love that we can be a know-it-all with just the touch of our fingertips. Today I choose wonder.
I thought of this phrase because my blog came up in a conversation today. The conversation was with AI. I'm not sure if that matters, but thought I'd add it because at least one of my kids would call me out for being dishonest if I didn't disclose. So, I spent an hour or so talking to AI about the fact that I wanted to get back into writing. I told AI about my blog. Then I went and found my blog and started reading it. I'm pretty sure you can follow how those steps got us here. I thought I'd give it another go. Because I don't have enough on my to do list.
I haven't written on this blog for 4 years. I got a job and left a job and restarted my business and started another business. And that's just some of the me stuff. Between our whole brood it's been a whirlwind of activities.
I won't recap, we'll just restart here. Here, is a snowstorm in April in Montana. I'm at my shop that has had no customers today and I'm having conversations with AI. I'm rethinking my priorities and trying to kick myself in the butt a little. I haven't had the best attitude lately. I can feel it affecting others and I really need to snap out of it. How do we get ourselves into these woe is me doldrums? I realized just how much I was in the trenches at my daughters therapy session this week. They ask us both to say something we're proud of ourselves for, proud of the other one for and something that we're looking forward to. I wasn't very proud of myself and it was hard to find an answer to give. I'm usually pretty darn full of myself and can generally find a way to pat myself on the back so this moment was very telling.
So I am now on a journey. A turn that frown upside down mentality shift. That means I am going to need to tackle some daunting tasks and that I am going to need to utilize creative outlets. So I'm saying it right here, right now. I am going to clean my room and I am going to write on this blog at least 2x per week. I sound like a middle schooler with these goals : ) I live with two of them so maybe I'm drawing inspiration? Just kidding, there is no way either of them would clean their room without being threatened. They should have learned by now, you can threaten yourself, you don't need anyone to do it for you. How have I not made that clear enough. Maybe it requires more mental fortitude then their prefrontal cortexes can handle at the moment. Maybe that's what I should be proud of myself for. I do not lack mental fortitude, I overflow with the effervescence of it. At least until I fail. I am also easily distracted. I'll report back on these monumental goals asap. I'm sure you'll be waiting with baited breath. Or is it bated? That's another funny phrase that I'm not going to google. I'll just move forward confidently and see if ends up embarrassing me someday down the road. Today is not that day so all is well.
April 16th rambling completed. You're welcome.
